"The bravest thing I have done with my life was continuing on when I wanted to die." -Juliette Lewis
I never imagined a quote would describe my life. But the one above, is my life in a nutshell.
My name is Caitlin Schitka, and I grew up on a farm outside of Wakaw, Saskatchewan.
If I wasn't influenced by this quote, I wouldn't be sharing my story with you today. My story would of had a period at the end of the sentence, but today it has a semi-Colon.
I struggled throughout the early years of my life. In school, I was severely physically, mentally and emotionally bullied by my peers. It made 13 years of schooling almost unbearable.
What didn't help was my journey with Mental Health issues. I've have had long battles with my mental health for almost 10 years now. It lead me to some of the darkest times in my life. Between the pain of school and my own self inflicted pain, life was total hell. I put on a mask to hide my pain.
2014-2015 has been probably the hardest year yet. In the last 8 months, I have had two major surgeries on my wrist, to fix my wrist from a bowling accident in my grade 12 year. I've struggled with my mental health. I've struggled with myself. And I almost gave up, I almost put that period at the end of my sentence.
Today, I'm in second year of University at the U of S, following my dream to become a School Counsellor. I've been clean from self harm for almost 2 years now. I may still and will struggle with mental health issues, but I now I can look in the mirror and see beauty looking back at me. I've now have amazing friends, something I never imagined. I found my confidence again, I've found myself. I can figure skate again, which is the biggest joy in my life. I love my job as a lifeguard and Swim Instructor. I'm beginning to love myself again. I still have a long journey ahead of me. But I'm not stopping now.